Friday, October 31, 2008

So yeah, I'm still alive :)

It's been a sorta busy past few weeks, I can only go online on the weekends, and the weekends have been making themselves a little busy lately. And as for everything else, I've really been a little preoccupied with school. Oh, and of course I can't forget trigonometry. The joys of trig >.<>

And of course, it being Friday today, I talked to my bestest! Well, actually we've slacked a little on the whole talking thing for the past two weeks, it being my fault mostly (>_<), but it was so nice to talk to her again. It's a little piece of "home" for me. Just talking 'bout silly things that other people would think to be really crazy, catching up on our lives, reminiscing high school memories. And now I'm here thinking how weird it is that in a year's time we'll both be at college already (sadly not at the same one). But I, for one, am looking forward to all our bestest days to come, no matter what the distance is between us :)

Friday, October 10, 2008

Thoughts on Wednesday Night...

(Thought I'd separate this from my other post)

Tonight during the message with the teens, during the "Question and Answer" time... One of the girls there asked, what I think, an issue that was pretty hard for her to voice. I give her props for being strong enough to say what she did. Though I'm not sure whether or not she was born again, she asked a kind of question I'm sure many of us ask, though maybe most of us just don't make it known to everyone that we feel that way, for fear of being criticized.

She was somewhat angry with her father who had left her when she was only born, someone who she had only met this year. She said of how he was doing most everything right until her mother died, then he just let go of his life, eventually ruining his life, and in turn his daughter's also. This was something very personal to her, and as she asked it her voice began to break and she began to cry. She asked how one person can go from doing so much good and all of a sudden do a 360 degree turn and just turn from all the good in his life, after such a big tragedy. Our youth director found her honesty and transparency to be a very brave thing, it isn't usual for a teenager to simply voice those type of thoughts in front of her peers. He gave an answer that I found wouldn't only apply to her, but to many who are on their spiritual walk, something that I could take with me when I'm at low points in my life (such as some sad times in our recent move).

He answered by saying how there's no other way he can think of to respond that other than by saying that after tragedies as that, the only One we can run to for perfect peace is Jesus. I find myself sometimes questioning the certain circumstances I'm in and how I can escape those depressing feelings and then I realize I can't always run to my friends, and my parents are always there for my support, but the only One who will fully take away the fear, hurt, or worry is Him. I found myself in tears as she told her story, 'cause here I am, with godly parents, a good church, friends of positive influence, a good Christian education, and still complaining that my life isn't how I want it to be. But here is a girl, with true pain, who doesn't have someone to turn to like I do. Someone without the assurance of a heaven, someone who can't find perfect peace 'cause she as she grieves for her earthly father, there is a heavenly Father grievig for her, and just waiting for her to come to Him. My hurt for her, and if you all could, please keep her in your prayers. I hope to be an encouragement to her, if I can face my fears and talk to someone I don't know. I'm thankful for that perfect peace I can get as one of the benefits of being one of His daughters.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

School Days Are Here Once More

Finally... They have arrived! :)

Last Thursday my dad came home with my first of three packages of my school materials. So the next day I started my first day of my senior year of high school. It feels so weird that in a year's time, I'll be starting college >.<>

On another note...

Another big step of my senior year has passed. Last week was a big one for me, what can I say? :) Aside from receiving my school materials, I also mailed my application for the college I'm planning and praying about going to. Instead of just handing it over to the mail guy at the post office, which I thought would be quite impersonal, hehe, I just bought the stamps I needed and dropped it down the mailbox myself :)

And aside from those "exciting" events in my life :).. It has been another good Wednesday night at church. Heard a good message from our youth director. Saw Danielle from Country Dreams, Dianne from Songs from the Heart, and met, in real life, my newest bloggy friend, Daddy's Girl! It was nice meeting you in real life, maybe we'll see each other again, next time, maybe longer than 2 mins ;D

Al together, it was a good night.